When The Posts Were for No One Ft. Realizations

I have long maintained that my posts are never for someone. And that was true till a while ago. And then it changed a little bit. I met someone who I can attribute at least 4 of my posts to. This was quite a big change for me. Initially I did not want to share those pieces on social media because they seemed more personal and intimate than any of the others I had written for some years. But they are online now, and they don’t look any different than my other posts. Only I would know the difference.

Okay I let in a couple of my friends on the secret too. They were surprised but supporting nonetheless! I make it sound more dire than the situation really is. But it seemed like a crucial milestone to log in the blog. I will not be posting the dates because I remember them anyway. The timestamps have skipped my mind now, which is progress! Haha. Full disclosure: the posts are still abstract, fictional and creative pieces. But the fact that they were born out of emotions after a certain period in time are enough to warrant this whole post!

It was a different time and refreshing experience for me. And to see if it could be discerned from the content of the piece that it was another kind of special. There are happy, fluffy pieces and really dark, heavy poems/haiku that can be attributed to that time. I am glad to report that all of the new pieces are free from the burden of that time or place or person or animal or thing :p Trying to make it light. Thank god it was only those 4 posts and now I’m back to fictionally orchestrated posts. Fancy term for : it came to me like that! One more confession: I cut my nails, voluntarily. To the world it may not seem like a lot. But my friends who understood the enormity of the situation gave me their full reactions. People change their hair as a trans-formative action. For me, it’s nails! Context: I used to be a chronic nail biter. I’ve somehow got over that habit in the last couple of years, so I treasure my natural nails a little bit too much now. Cutting them is a big deal. This post has turned into a life update of sorts.

I don’t know who enjoys reading these random posts, but I’m sure I will fondly look over these later in life (if I live long enough, but that is a topic for another day, haha). Thank you for reading! Hope everyone is keeping busy, staying safe and having fruitful days 🙂

PS. The featured image is from that day, serving as a cool reminder.

I’ve been gone.

Now that I see my stats for January, they’re better than in December! I guess distance truly makes the blog-heart grow fonder too.

It has been almost two months since I posted something on the blog. These breaks have been more frequent and sporadic in the last few months. If I promise myself that I will post something big and fancy on the blog, I end up missing my deadlines and skip the normal light posts too. For some reason, time and life have been incredible in the last few days and that did not leave me much time to just sit down and write.

It is not like I don’t have time, I while it away! Haha. It really is not funny but it has been happening. For every two productive hours I have, I end up wasting the rest of that day. Youtube, people, and life’s chores are the culprits. I cannot skip the daily chores while living alone which means that I wasted my time on the phone scrolling aimlessly. Or by chatting and talking to an obscene number of people.

Something changed at the end of November, which altered my mood and general outlook towards a lot of things in life and I attribute it to my long time friend P. If it manifests into good things, I will give her all the due credit. But for now, it made me very happy and incredibly bubbly for all the days that I’ve lived since then. You could say that I started experiencing a lot, living a lot, and letting go of a lot. I opened myself up to new, exciting experiences which were a scary but fun rollercoaster. I cannot really share what she told me, or what was the direct consequence of it, but I lived a life that didn’t feel like mine for almost a month! And then I slowly got to normal.

I am not even myself anymore! I am a little bit changed after experiences and feelings, because those were ones that could alter your personality. Don’t get me wrong, I was on adrenaline and life-high! But it was new to me. We went travelling to Vienna, Budapest and Bratislava in December and I will be posting the pictures and blog for that soon. There was also a trip to Harz mountains in Germany that will be a well sought-for post, especially for my friends. I am not the trekking kind of girl, but I went there! It was one of the most transformative trips of my life, along with the other one in December. A shell was cracked, some stuff spilt out, some changed and the highest impact was on the mood and the general vibe of my personality.

Long story short, I will be back to posting, regularly I can hope. And since February is exam month, I will definitely be posting regularly 😀 I am hoping that it will keep on the groove for the next few months while I’m pumped and feeling creative.

So thanks for reading my rant and very vague life update. I don’t share much anyway, and this is a lot considering my habits. But then again, I went through a mini transformation. Nothing is off-limits anymore.

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